Recently, a friend and mentor of mine verbalized his observation of my "stable" state of mind and attitude in the wake of all she's done to herself, and by extension, to us as a family. I didn't even realize how stable & peaceful I was feeling at that moment. In fact, I was torn with whether or not to even mention it here so
publicly for fear of taking credit for something that was so far outside of my own doing. But, there you have it: it wasn't my doing. I wasn't keeping myself in peace [Is. 26.3] by intense concentration or fierce labor of the body, I had merely decided not to fight against the all powerful God whose name is "Master of the Universe" (Adonai, melech ha olam). With regard to all Brie is going through, Cristine and I have acknowledged that God is in control and despite the fact that we disagree with His methods of sanctifying our daughter (and again, by extension, us...) at this time, we trust Him to have a far better plan than we to accomplish His ends.
Then, today, as I was reading Jim Cymbala's "Spirit Rising", I noticed Cristine had circled one line in Francis Chan's introduction - "It is the Spirit who gives life. The flesh is no help at all. (John 6.63)"
Praise the Lord.
The TruthThe truth was right there in black and white. Mere paragraphs from one of my favorite and misquoted verses in scripture: "if you hold to my teachings, then you are truly my disciples. And, you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. (John 8.31-32)" And, there I was - set free by the truth that my flesh (my natural tendency to do things in my own power and will) was of no help in bringing me peace and stability. At any given moment, we have a choice - we can wrestle with God (which very rarely pays off - see Gen. 32.35 and Gen. 18 for examples) in our own strength or we can yield to the Spirit.
The Hard Question:Are you striving or trusting, right now?
Jesus made a big deal about the Holy Spirit - "...it is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Advocate will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. John 16.7)" If it was better for Him to go and the Spirit to come, shouldn't we expect more of the Spirit in our lives? YES!!! I didn't feel any tingling in my bones, didn't glow in the dark, didn't even speak in tongues - but when my mentor mentioned my demeanor, I did notice the peace that I had no part in creating. I simply yielded to the Spirit. That promise and peace are available to you, and all who call upon the name of Christ with a pure heart. Isn't that NUTS?! Just for the asking and the yielding. You don't have to wield an axe and chop down a forest, you just have to sit and rest.
So, sit. Rest. Know that He is sovereign and you are His.
Peace. Really - rest... in... peace.